until now
i’ve always been so strong. So sure. Walked with confidence, head high, shoulders back, an audacious gleam in bright blue eyes. Words slithered from my head and from my heart, flew from my dancing fingers to take on a life of their own. i’ve known what i am.
Until now.
Now, words strangle me with their strangeness, stare back at me with insolent glee, and i want to run from them. But i can’t. They own me, the words, in a way no man ever will, impale me to a depth even you cannot reach. i’ve always been so strong.
Until now.
elise, I can’t imagine your words ever betraying you - your talent is so intrisically entwined with who you are and is so huge, that I think it impossible that they could ever desert you. But that doesn’t mean they can’t be capricious, even cruel - take a deep breath, true strength isn’t always about battling back, but about having the strength to tolerate sometimes … I know you will get through this.
selkie,
Thank you. i appreciate that.
elise